It’s been ages since I’ve blogged properly! I guess I’ve just been feeling too lazy to actually get down to doing a proper post on this blog and how ironic, I’m supposed to be studying for a test this coming Friday and I should seriously be studying and not thinking of penning down my thoughts and feelings at this awkward time. (ie 1:38 pm in the middle of a Wednesday afternoon)

This sounds totally random but I miss my friends. I really do miss the three awesome girls I feel completely at ease with, I love how I can always be myself around them. Jan, Wanxian and Kat - the loves of my life. (Who needs guys anyway?) Sigh they’re far away though and I’m stuck here in Singapore. Everyone is so caught up with university life and I used to feel the same way. Going to school used to be so fun and well, exciting but now I feel like school is such a bore. I know I shouldn’t feel this way since you know, being able to attend school at a university makes me lucky and I should feel blessed and fortunate but really, I hardly have the mood/ energy/ drive to want to go to school nowadays. Maybe I’m just a lazy ass or maybe I haven’t found any close friends in school yet. It’s kinda hard making new friends nowadays. Even the occasional small talk with people you bump into along the streets seems so.. forced.

Like for example-
Sophia: Oh hi it's such a surprise to see you!
xxx: Omg hi same here! How are you?
Sophia: I'm goooddd! What about you? What are you studying now?
xxx: Uhm ____. What about you?
Sophia: Real Estate!
xxx: (Wtf is that?) Ohhh really that's cool! So are you gonna be a property agent next time?
Sophia: Haha nooo. Hmm so.... (awkward pause) How's school?
xxx: School's okay! (loong awkward pause) Well, i'll see you around then!
Sophia: You too, bye!

Get my drift?

I have so many friends but those friendships which will last forever? Maybe only a handful.

Oh and another thing, I’m putting on weight like noboby’s business IT'S NOT EVEN FUNNY ANYMORE. God I miss my skinny sec three days when I weighed a mere 43 kg. Now I’m like ___ kg heavier than that and omg I have no idea how im gonna lose all this excess weight. It's gonna get even worse when the hols come along and i'll be having so much fun till i forget that eating dessert after every meal isn't exactly "normal".

Back to the subject of school, i really need to start studying again, for now. So now i shall push aside daydreams of Japan, New York (no thanks to you, Gossip Girl) and Hawaii, and settle down to read my notes. I'm sure what they said about university life being the best time of your life isn't completely fictitious. I just have to try harder, yes?