I love blogging at times like these :)

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With every passing moment,
Thoughts of you run through my head.

I'm on to the next phase of my life. Today I asked a certain someone for a proper closure. And that will be the last time I will ever be asking that "certain someone" for anything ever again. This has dragged on for far too long and hurtful words have been said from both parties. Though it hurts, so much, I am sure things will be fine again because time heals all wounds and i'm stronger than you think I am.

Wow I spent my whole weekend at home! Let's see.. I woke up early for breakfast with my family today. Shopped for groceries with my mom after that. Then I had a short nap in the afternoon haha I think im sleeping too much nowadays. I love lazy afternoons at home :) I just watched "The Wedding Planner". I never get tired of watching romantic comedies. Of course my all time favourite film is still "Pretty Woman", with "My Best Friend's Wedding" being a close second. Julia Roberts has such a gorgeous, infectious smile.

I want to be swept off my feet again.

I often think that the best time to blog is at times like these, in the wee hours of the morning when it's quiet and most people are asleep. I had an eventful night I think, and my heart was in turmoil, but i'm okay now. I'm alright.

The first week of school was mundane, to say the least. I only had to go to school on Monday, Thursday and Friday for a few verrryyyyy boring and rather useless lectures. A few things kinda upset me today so I took a five hour long nap in the evening to ya know, "sleep it off". I feel so refreshed now! I havent really been sleeping well (esp after mambo night on wednesday) and I think I really needed that extra few hours of sleep!

Nothing else I wanna blog about haha I realised a while ago that there's a prevalent melancholic theme to this blogg.. I shall blog about happier, more interesting things next time! :-)

So school has finally started! No more lying in bed all day and doing basically nothing. I think it's great that school has started so lazy bums like me can finally have something productive to do instead of gallivanting everyday without an aim or purpose. So I guess.. life has been okay. Lectures are rather boring but the people in school are nice and friendly.

I met up with Wanxian yesterday and it got me thinking. It's rare to find such great friends like her. She and Jan have always been there for me, day and night. When I was feeling horrid, they never failed to try all ways and means to cheer me up. Jan would call me from Australia and talk to me for hours till I felt better! They're awesome and I would be so lost without them.

Everyday you took my breath away but now there's no reply
Only hi, goodbye.

Have a good day all!

I havent been home much lately. My eyes feel like they're about to pop out of their sockets :( During the past few weeks, I found myself in school almost everyday, training from noon to night for NUS RAG day and having countless dance sessions in preperation for the big day. Though the briefcase girls were indignant and unhappy at times due to (______________), the experience as a whole proved to be immensely satisfying at the end of it all. Today morning was THE day, the day all of us had spent weeks gearing up for. We only had one chance to showcase our talents, to give it our all and to do our best to impress the judges. Even though SDE did not win any prizes this year, we certainly did try our best and we "danced like there was no tomorrow" out on the stage. The friendships and strong bonds forged definitely made the whole experience unforgettable yet bittersweet and really, no words can describe the joy and immense pride we sde raggers felt at the end of the performance when we finally managed to stack the boxes on top of one another without difficulty, portraying a beautiful picture to the audience at the end. I was so pleased when I was standing at the side of the stage and hearing people shouting "GO SOPHIA!" I couldn't see who those lovelies were but ahhh I feel the love :) It was no doubt nerve racking at first being up on stage in front of hundreds of people but we raggers got over it and our performance at rag day was, if i say so myself, awesome! :)

College life has been great so far! Lessons proper start next week though ugh. I can't imgaine sitting through all those dull and sleep-inducing lectures again :( But ohwell, there are only four more years before I enter the working/ corporate world and I am not looking forward to it all. Cherish our youth, youth is (unfortunately, not) forever!

Now, I need to rest my poor eyes. Goodnight all!

I'm not going to waste (more) tears on you.
Enough please.

I have many things in my life to be thankful for. I have a (sometimes) loving family and many great friends whom I can count on. I do not have to worry about where my next meal is going to come from and most of all, I am loved by my family and my friends. I am a very lucky girl. God knows how the poverty stricken people in other countries are suffering. So yes, I should learn to count my blessings.

So much has changed in this two and a half years. I was foolish and giddy in love, I believed that forever then meant forever and ever. What did I know? I was barely 17 years old. What did I know about "forever"? Now, I find myself disillusioned and disenchanted. Nothing in life comes without a struggle. But at the end of it all, you do emerge a stronger and wiser person. Looking back now, no doubt, I wish I could have done some things differently. But here I am, forcing myself to look to the future, focused and determined not to make the same damn mistakes again.
"Sophia, chin up chin up."

If anyone could make me a better person, you could.