Sometimes I just feel so lost. Just half a year ago, I felt so optimistic and I thought that this time, things might actually be different. I never knew that the things you say sometimes could hurt so much. And sometimes I'll feel so hurt when you tell me things, shout at me and tell me that I'm stupid.

"What the fuck is wrong with you?"

"You're disgusting"

"Why do you dress so sluttily?"

Maybe it's just me. Maybe I'm a jinx. I'm not perfect either, I know. But I'm trying.

The day when I walk away from you, will be the day you realise that you'll never be more alone, and that noone could ever have loved you as much as I did.